Its official , plenty of things happened between this post and the last. I just took on of the bitter-est pill so far in life- the break up one.
Honestly, its more like a sandwich - with a bitter top of betrayal and a bitter bottom then of separating. its up to the individuals to put what ever filling you want between the two. Swt* I didn't want the standard putus semua ABC , 123 normal , hard way break. Ended up with a weird one then.
Was extremely diplomatic, heard her side of the story first, cleared stuff up. Despite warnings to avoid being 'jilted' I knew shes not like that , dropped the bomb, tears shed etc.. blah blah.. explain stuff-
Yea,imagine breaking up THEN later sitting down to do a sort of review over the relationship, like a post-break up review together. Things you thought the other party said and did etc.. Weird. Then again its just demoting a relationship to close friends you know and literally did.
Quite proud of myself for handling it well at that time and pitied her when she wanted to go back to Dublin after a 2 and a half hour journey up you know. No freaking person would like to journey that far just to get dumped. So stayed over loor..
Classmates had a movie night out that night so we met them after the movie at the Stiff Kitten- but we stil acted like we're together. Things were ok, after the bar, headed home but then thought of going out somewhere so yea -
'Ever wondered what a gaybar is like?...'
Nearly decided to go (The Kremlin) a joke leads to another and everything went hair-wired and ended up making out for almost the whole night? After you break up?
WTF?! -mind you now, only making out..
Only to both agree -'we should have done this a looooong time ago...'
Maybe things could have been different then.
Only remember sleeping at 4 something..waking at 7 again..
BUT this was pretty fucked up- After breaking up?
WEIRD but pleasant. Least to say.
Anyways the leaving part was as you could imagine pretty damn wrenching. Lucky I can hide emotions (like any other males) by just 'stoning'
And yes I do have a few outbreaks (no cry) - (man no cry :P ) now and then when your stupid Itunes put on cheesy/emo songs so pull at your heart strings..
Can't flipping sleep now. Not on my own bed anyway haih.. Just can't.. Considering sleeping on the floor tonight.
Damnit!
Damnitt!!
Damnittt!!
2 comments:
wow jijiman.. u r really a heck of a jijiman ! i wanna say 'stay strong' but at the same time i cant help laughing at d fact that u made out so much only after the break up.. okok, sorry was only joking.. but r u ok now?
hahahahahahaha,,..!!! aiya ok wan la. Moving house today so lucky dun have to stay in that place anymore.. But yea, kept me occupied for a while. I'm fine. The weather's not!
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